I want get rid of our pool and make big pond.. but with 8 ppl wanting the broken down pool to stay up.. I think ill try my luck next year.. thats why i gave my poor gold fishies away today.. they would get pretty bored spending all summer in a rubbermaid tote .. Well at least i would, but hey, im not a fish! Oh yeh, and someone hung the Forsale sign back up. so i guess we gotta start praying again.. I want a Chevy Suburban. Anyone got one for me? Yeh I know.. i want alot of stuff. but i cant have any of it..

Didnt do anyting tonight.. i guess i coulda gone to Tronster's house party because I was supposed to go to the Potluck dinner but my wonderful family didnt wake me up and I didnt wake up until 1.5 hours after dinner so I didnt go. That sucked! But oh well. now I wait till my fam comes home and see if they were thoughtful enough to bring me some home. I doubt it! Anyway, took the fish to put in A.Ginnys pond .. wow their were about 50 including the babies. then went and bought a couple striped raphaels to put in with my wolf cichlids.. I guess we'll see if they survive! Hope so. Also bought 4 chinese algae eaters.. one for each tank! They are scared to death too! oh well, its life for a finned creature. find a hole and swim in.. what a life.. I think one of my oscars is retarded tho. It doesnt any sense of direction and cant even eat a piece of food like a normal fish. I put a piece of inanimate food in the tank and it attacks it like a man from the hood that needs some cash! But hey, maybe it grew up in bad times and needs to let out its pent up energy.. idk maybe Ill talk to it later or else send it to counseling. hmmmm. maybe! Anyway, thot the world forgot about .. but then no.. canst called me up and got the honors of hearing me shave with my hands free! Ok ok, ill stop complaining now.. im starting to sound like the blog that I dont read anymore! Thats enough of that! Don't want to scare ppl off! Think i'll go pick up my pants from getting them hemmed.. maybe ill wear my new clothes to church tomorrow if its warm enough.. I think i want an iPod. and a bookcase. Ok, nevermind. I dont want any of that. I'm gettin old! I really am.

Phillies won tonight. not that I care too much about them but it was cool to see their new ball park. I'm very tired and for the first time in ages, im not going trout fishing on opening day, April 17th. Good luck to Tronster for his house party on the 17th hope all goes well for you. I talked to TB from the Mayfair Lodge about a VF event. The first sat. open is July 3, but all Fridays are open. Hmm that tends to throw us a curve ball. Anyone know of a place that would handle us that is open on May 15th for a reasonable rate?? Oh well, that's what we want.. what does the Lord want? But Your will, not mine! Too tired to blog long. byeeee

JF

Didn't blog last night, but better yet, after a three hour conversation I made some things right with a friend! The feelings seemed to be mutual and it was a load off my mind that all apologies were made and accepted. I mean what do you do, you made mistakes and time goes by, it eats away at you and you wonder why. But God is in control and He presented the opportunity. With the help of the Holy Spirit, we both understood and were overjoyed that we got it cleared up! ANYWAY! Going to see the Phillies play the Expos, box seats and a parking pass on a clear Friday night! woohoo! I'm not totally into the Phillies but the new park, Pete, Ned, Curt and I will have a good time I'm sure! Maybe I'll catch a few fail balls. It's always cool when you send in for a rebate and then forget about it. I got a rebate for 49 bucks back that I had forgotten about, how cool is that! Thats like 2 weeks pay right there!! Called the Son's of Italy tonight to see about renting their lodge for the next VF event. But no call back yet. Keep your fingers crossed and keep praying because from what I remember of this place it may suit our needs. BUT it is left up to the Lord to find us a place that is suitable.. if not this place, then our options are opened again and we wait on the Lord! Ok, now I did know and still do know that all life is sacred,, even squirrels.. so i've cut back alot on the depopulation of them> BUT>. life isn't so sacred when it is rats and they are in your place of employment!!! Go ISCO!! Call me up!! I'll hunt them for FREE!! Oh, btw, forget the briefcase, i got one.. but i'm still looking for the bookcase.. Oh, and I ordered the book, which i think i already said "Mere Christianity". Now the second step, to put it in the bookcase.. oh wait actually step two is to read it!! I think i will tho. sooner or later. But I was thinking, why are people so stubbron? I mean, don't think it is only in my families genes, which, hey, i wont deny, they slipped on the measuring when they gave us our share. But anyone in general, if we did something and owed someone an apology, why did it take me 6 months or however long it was 1 year. or wahtever... idk.. weird ppl i guess! If ya find out.. lemme know! I stumbled across my potatoe gun tonight.. I think I may have to take it to work tomorrow and try it out.. man its great workin in the ghetto, you can test fire anything and the people dont really acknowledge. I think I have a new puerto rican best friend, thats what happens when you do them one favor.. they think you are Allah and keep coming back for more free favors.. Thats when you say, "Um, idk.. you have to see the boss". Hey speaking of which.. two lines that are good for work, if you are in the service industry.. are these:
1-if you are working on something for a customer and they call and ask if its done yet, you say, "Almost but I keep gettin interrupted by the phone".
2-And if they come to the shop and want something done while they wait, you say, "I cant I have to do this guys first, he tips more than you". Trust me they both work! ha.. actually they are kind of rude when you think about it.. arent they? But in my line of work they have a different motto: "The customer's always right, unless the boss is in"! But when is he ever in, right? I wonder what they'd do without me. But what do I care, if the Lord wants me to stay, I stay. If he wants me to leave, I leave! Simple as that. There is no need to worry about the futuer, what job you will have, where you will live, what you will eat, what you will wear, DUH, That's God's job, if we do that too what do we need him for? Oh right, he is just symbolic right, he is just the one that we SAY we have faith in.. but when asked what we have faith in Him for.. we say "Salvation" and then cant think of anything else>>!! But that's wrong!! It should be faith in God for everything!! Not just what we can't do for ourselves!! See somebody loves us! Someone ripped the for sale sign off our house, but wait, it coulda just been the wind.. oh well at least it was a thought. I think someone may still love us. Oh yeh, now i remember!

I've heard all the stories. I've seen all the signs, witnessed all the glory, tasted all that's fine, But nothing compares to the greatness of knowing you Lord, Oh No. Nothing compares to the greatness of knowing you Lord, Oh No. I see all the people, wasting all their time, building up their riches, for a life thats fine, nothing compares to the greatness of knowing you Lord, Oh no, nothing compares to the greatness of knowing you Lord, oh No! --Those words that were spoken and written by the Apostle Paul apply just as much to our lives today as they did two thousand years ago when he wrote them. that in our lives. no matter where we could go, or who we could meet, or what we could see, or what we could earn, or be given to us, or accomplish, there is nothing in our lives that will ever even come close to knowing Jesus Christ our Lord-- And I find myself just living for today, cause i dont know what tomorrows gonna bring, so no matter if i rise or fall, i'll never be alone, no no !! no !! nothing compares to the greatness of knowing you Lord, oh No! Nothing compares to the greatness of knowing you Lord! Oh NO !! Nothing compares to the greatness of knowing You Lord, Nothing compares to you Lord, nothing compares to You Lord !! Nothing compares to the greatness of knowing You, Lord!

Knowing the Lord Jesus Christ is the most important thing in any person's life. Some peole just don't realize just how important it is. It's not about church, it's not about religion, it's not about work, it's not about good deeds. It is about knowing and having a personal relationship with Jesus Christ. If we have a genuine love for the Lord all these things will be biproducts of our faith in Jesus Christ. And not just faith in Him for the little things, but faith in Him for the big things too. If He only wanted us to have faith in Him for little things would not he have said "have faith in me for the little things, but when it comes to things such as your health, finances, protection etc. just find a human way to do it because I cannot come close to matching up to the human efforts you mortals use. If we think that it is great now and we still depend on ourselves and human ways, man wait until our "All on the altar of sacrifice is laid". Why do we think it is called sacrifice. Because all in all, when judgement days comes. The deciding factor is going to be "Did you believe and have faith in my Son, Jesus Christ?" Now what could believe mean, well we know that most of us believe that Jesus Christ died for our sins, But do we really have faith that Jesus Christ will provide, protect and heal? Nothing compares to the greatness, not even giving into temptation to go to man for the things that God promises. "He who has promised is faithful" Hebrews 10:23 NIV. Do we really believe what he promised us? Or just slip by and do it our way since it looks so much more logical? I wouldn't want to be caught doubting on that day when He comes back to see how many he will find watching and faithful!! because we do know what the Bible says in Revelation 21:8 "But the cowardly, the unbelieving, the vile, the murderers, the sexually immoral, those who practice magic arts, the idolaters and all liars—their place will be in the fiery lake of burning sulfur. This is the second death.” I don't think that means the ones who did that years ago before they had a moment of saving faith, but that means ALL as it is all those people whether they did it long ago or today, if they never repent, that is where their place is, that is a good reminder to stay on the path that leads to eternal life! It is not just that we call ourselves Christians that will get us saved and it is not that we "got saved" one time a long time ago, that is our ticket to Heaven. But moreso it is a continuing life of faith in Jesus Christ and where there is genuine faith there will also be fruits of the Spirit. James 2:26"As the body without the spirit is dead, so faith without deeds is dead". The Lord Jesus Christ loves me and I love the Lord Jesus Christ. "Lord grant me the ability to love you more than ever and follow your precepts and ways, Lord, I dont know what tomorrow will bring, if i will rise or fall, or if everyone will like me or hate me, But Lord, one thing that I know is that You are Lord and if I remain in You, You will remain in me, John 15:4. Lord, there is nothing that I want to do more than to live for you a life that is pleasing to you and I can do it no other way than with the ability that You give me. I am nothing with out you and anything that I do, is just a reflection of you shining in me.

Ok, so forget the pizza i was hungry for, i settled for a bowl of Raisin Bran and a glass of tea. This was the most tiredest day of my life i think.. I couldnt really stay awake at work today, but that is ok we werent too busy anyway. But I got caught up on my sleep. I think I got 2 hours of sleep when i got home from work. not to mention that I was falling asleep while getting my hair cut. My sister asked me if they could have a party for me, like what am i supposed to say, yes?no? ha. idk whatever I guess. I'm one of those people who, when it comes to doing new things that arent necessary or be around new people, sometime I just skip it rather than bother trying to hack it. If that makes sense. Like, what is easier to go to sleep for an hour or two, or to try to socialize with your great aunt and her friends? ok so it was a bit extravagant but you get my point.. or maybe yo dont.. but too bad.

Still havent got by bookcase. But i did finally get my easter candy-A day late!

JF

Dinner was great at my cousins' house! They had more food than I could imagine! And it was all great! Alot of laughs and remembering good times! Its always great to spend time with family and remember the old times! I need a coffee house around here somewhere! Maybe I should start one, thats a great idea, a Christian coffee house! hmmm, don't even go there Jeff too much already, you dont need more! Ok, you're right, i don't. I'll forget it! Thanks to Tronster i'm considering reading a book! Oh the horrors, I have only read one or two books besides my Bible since I graduated high school 9 years ago! He recommended "Mere Christianity" by C.S. Lewis. So I'll consider reading it. BUT, I need to get myself a bookcase to replace the crappy one on my wall now! I refuse to buy a book to read if I don't have somewhere to put them. And no, I don't like to borrow books because then I can't keep them when i'm done. Oh, I actually have read somethings but I HATE fiction. If its like the story kind of fiction, i say just make the movie and i'll watch it instead. Next time Tronster is in town i'll have to catch him and we'll have to do lunch or dinner and do some catching up! Really good friend to have! Ha, I think it's great he prob thinks its a burden! J/K i know he don't! But definitely some good, deep talks.

ZZZ time, out!

JF

CW was excellent last night as usual! I was not going to go, but through a course of events including some ppl asking for rides and some who may not have gone, I went. I was glad I did even though i was not too active. I went with a down feeling, but that kinda picked up when I got into the night! Tronster showed up and we chatted a little bit. But, after CW was over I just wanted to hand Tronster some literature that I had for him and talk for 5 minutes, but the Lord used him and opened the way for us to spend 1.5 hours together in this really cool coffee house across the street. God used that night and used tronster to really bring peace to something that I have struggled with for a long time! I swear that every time I talk to this guy, the encouragement that he gives is amazing! I did apologize for the late start back to Maryland that he had, but I'm sure he realizes just as I do that that talk was put in place by none other than God our Father for the betterment of both of our spiritual lives. I definitely have to keep closer contact with him, well more than once every 2 months anyway. Jeff Stoltzfus was also a great encouragement, he talked about the youth group that his wife revived and now 11 years later, CW was birthed from that almost deceased youth group. That in itself is enough to say that God will use anything, anyone, anywhere to do great things IF------IF they are dedicated and have a true heart for the Lord ! I think that one of the things that could be detrimental to a group is if they plateau on their adventure with God. What I mean by that is that if you are growing and maturing with God through whatever means you have, be it youth group, events, volunteering etc. don't stop growing with the Lord, don't let what you do become monotonous and therefore spiritual growth come to a halt! Continue to pray and ask God to give you more and more learning experiences and to be used in greater ways by Him. If a person has a sincere heart for the Lord, or a 'heart of worship', I don't think there is a limit to the way that God will use them! I think that something that is done too often is someone will feel a calling to do something for the Lord and they hold off, or wait. Maybe hoping that someone else will take the initiative or whatever. But don't!! If you feel the Lord tugging, calling you to something, pray, and if it is where the Lord is sending you, GO! (As we rocked to last night with Andy Hunter) GO and do what the Lord wants you do to. BUT, don't think that its just another thing to do. It takes time, energy, interest, dedication, compromise, and sacrifice!! And, all worth it because it is for the Kingdom of God and helping people here on earth to hear about the love that Christ has for them !! Another thing is I think that too many times when we think we may have a calling, we sit back and wait,,,, instead of running after the heart of God! Louie Giglio speaks about that and has some good things to say.

Ohh time to head back to church for the Easter story!